Obstacles to Writing

I have found the biggest obstacles I have to writing come from both external and internal. Writing does not come easy to me and is often a struggle. I have found I write best when I take time to research the expectation or material, have a quite place to work and not have time constraints. I find it really helpful to know what is expected of me and do research so I can think about how I want my writings to flow.  This is often the part that takes me the longest. I have found having a quite place to work with plenty of time before the due date easies the pressure I feel and allows me to think more clearly.

One of the other biggest factors is what is going on in my world at the moment. It is tremendouly difficult for me to write when I have stressful or emotional things going on in my life. This week my mother was admided to ICU and is going to need to be moved to a skill nursing facility. The stress and emotional toll of events like these make it so difficult to sit and do homework. I find doing physical work so much eaiser in situations like these as it feels like I have no mental capaticy left for writing. I also have to set aside my desire to work with plenty of time and work under more pressure making the whole process more difficult. It seems like I have written hundreds of papers since I started at community college and I still struggle with low self-writing-esteem. I wonder if it ever goes away or if that is what drives me to continue to try and improve my skills.