Road Blocks to Writing

 I have never really sat and thought about why it is hard for me to complete writing assignments prior to this project. I know I usually get a pit in my stomach when I read about an upcoming easy and it grows larger with every additional page requirement. I found this project helpful in determining why I have this reaction. I found time, energy and lack of knowledge on subject matter were all factors in the growth of the pit. Although I think the biggest factor was low self-esteem. I have a fear that what I write will not be good enough. I hate letting anyone read my rough drafts as I know they will see my imperfections and may think I am stupid.

Of course, my rational brain knows you have to set aside time to make sure you have the energy to find the knowledge, in order to write a successful paper. I know I have written at least a hundred papers over the last few years and yet I can't seem to shake the negative feeling I have about my writing abilities. I find this to be especially challenging going to school on-line with our weekly post requirements. I think the post requirements have been a really helpful tool for me. The posts forces me to publish a writing for all to see several times a week in multiple classes. The combination of my school work load and other obligations and responsibilities does not allow the time for me to criticize every work I type.

This was an interesting and helpful assignment.  

Free Writing

I must say free writing has some challenges to it. It is strange to just let your fingers write what they wanted with no rules. I found that was the focus on my free write. I really enjoyed not worrying about spelling or work cited. Ah, work cited puts a deep fear in me. I am always so concerned about not completing that part of writing correctly. I imagine with all of the papers due for this program, I will master that skill in no time. I also found it really difficult to clear my mind and not control what I was writing. This exercise reminded me of the first few times I did yoga and how hard it was to clear my mind. Writer's yoga seems like a good name for this exercise.   

I would also like to say congratulations to my fellow students. We are almost to the half way point in the semester. I would say, it is all down hill from here, but that seems wrong. Happy Mid-Semester! Looking forward to getting to know more about all of you.